I GOT ACCEPTED TO CSULB! (on friday)

no one knows exactly how happy i was when i got this in the mail. i kept thinking that i wouldnt get accepted into any college because of how my grades have been for the past two semesters.. i was to the point where my parents themselves didnt have hope in me form what i over heard, yet i was still at an average grade. just not at my best. i’ve been slacking off honestly, i dont want to do anything. i just wanted to go out and do whatever makes me happy. you can say senioritis hit me hard since second semester of junior year, when my grades counted the most. 

on top of that.. the things my family is experiencing.. i was close to moving to vegas in the middle of my last semester. i, myself, hate going to vegas on the weekends whereas everyone else loves going as a getaway. for me, its a routine. we do the same things over and over again. we stay at the house, go eat out, shop my feelings away.. i mean.. i can do that here. 

i dont want to move to vegas, not because id be somewhat “independent” from you guys, its because if i didnt get at least one acceptance letter.. id be leaving everything behind. all my family, my friends, the ones i hold close to my heart, all my experiences here, all my dreams here in california. id have to apply to UNLV, that isnt even part of my choices. itd be my parents. “its a good school” “youll be getting the same education anyway” “youll be able to have your own car” i dont care. i wont be happy there. id be leaving everything behind. 

i cant see myself living outside of socal.. im a socal kid. thats never gonna change

so i hope this acceptance was a slap in the face for you. im better than you thought i was. i got accepted when you thought i didnt. thanks for the false encouragement you were feeding me.